one month

well there it is... I've been here a month already.  

The sadder news to that, is I think I might be a 3 month person.

Things aren't much different then when I first got here.  Sure, things are not as frightening, but I do miss home as much as I did in the beginning.. and I still don't feel settled here, I'm getting there, but not yet.

   This week has been just a crappy week.  Since I had training, I didn't have a lot of time to prepare for the next week.  And to make things even better I had a really bad stomach ache on Tuesday, and a super awful headache on Wednesday.. and when one is sick.. the homesickness kicks into gear, and then the self doubt.. I really didn't want to be a teacher those days, and felt terrible because my lessons were terrible (in my mind) and I felt that I was letting a lot of people down.

   Today was a bit better.. other then my head hurting again.  I felt a lot more cheerful, and just ready to look for things again to teach.. and just be excited about teaching.  sorta.. It almost feels like I have forgotten how to be excited about things...

   Friday will be another crazy day.. I have a lot of classes in a row, and so that is super draining..

  Saturday I am having lunch with one of the teachers at the school.  She is a computer teacher, but has very limited English, as in, other people talk to me for her... so lunch should be interesting.. at least i am getting better at using chopsticks.. but i will bring my fork, just in case.

  Sunday is still up in the air.. church yes :) and maybe I will go to the COEX mall to the aquarium.... i want to see fish....