Another monday

Ah, Mondays

  I sure didn't want to wake up this morning.. just because i wanted more sleep :)

But I got up, and got to school.

At school the students are doing their mid-terms right now.  They have three periods for mid-terms, and then by 12 (noon) they are heading home to study etc.

I have to be at school all day, from 8 till 4:30... BUT they decided so that I wouldn't be bored all week, that I should be part of the exams.  I get to go with teacher to the exam rooms and stand at the back of the classroom for 45 min.. YAY! Instead of sitting at my computer clicking on things.

Ms. Lee (my co-teacher) was also looking into me being able to leave early, like the rest of the teachers.. but we will see what happens with that.

  Today the principal took me out to lunch again, with other teachers :)  We went to this special place that is very natural foods etc.  They also have a special dish, which is rice and what Ms. Lee said was honeysuckle.. but it really reminded me of swiss chard, or Kale... so rice and kale was the main dish.. and then you can add little things to your rice.. like the fact that I tried kimichi turnip in it.. pickled spicy turnip.  Very strange.. but good.  

So a korean meal goes with a lot of little appetizers, about 6 dishes, and then the main rice.  Then they give you a rice tea (it tastes like pop corn), then we were served a sorta pancake like thing.. its sorta like a patty made out of something.  All the tastes here are so HARD to explain, since we have nothing like them in Canada, you will all just have to go to a Korean restaurant and try things to know what i am eating :) And then we had another Korean tea.. its super hard to explain that one.. it was a red color and had like 5 tastes to it.  And then coffee.  

   So after that i was super full.  

Now, our principal is a very caring lady, and EVERYONE at the school worries about 2 things, that I am not eating enough, and that I am lonely (yes, I am lonely).. SO the principal asked me to come back to the school with her, and watch a movie about a Cuban band, it was about 2 hours long.  Anyone who has watched a movie with me knows that I have a problem.  I can't stay awake when we are watching movies.  Now add to a movie, with nice music, in spanish, and me FULL of food... 

  yeah, I fell asleep on my principal...

When I woke up the film was just ending.. and there was a note for me with 2 other movies for me to take home, and some more snacks....

I felt terrible for falling asleep.. and I figured she hadn't left that long ago.. so I went to her office to say thank-you and to apologize for sleeping (she doesn't speak english very well.. but I think she understood)

   And now I am sitting at home.. I watched one of the movies she sent with me.. it was a classical music DVD.. a guy named Andre Rieu... and i had some lovely instant mashed potatoes for my dinner.. I haven't had potatoes in AGES :)  

   AND i found SKITTLES at the grocery store today!!! HAPPY HAPPY... minus the fact that they don't taste exactly the same, the green ones are actually green apple.. very tragic. 

   Tomorrow I get to go to more exams, and then I get to go out for lunch with all the English teachers (to a place that serves Western food.. YIPPEE).. and then I do believe I will be joining the "foreigners" out for dinner for Kristen's birthday... :)

   Please know, I am fine.  I enjoy Korea, and I enjoy my school.  One day my heart will be happier here.  I am blessed that things are so good here, and that people care so much for me.  I just struggle with the fact that I don't feel happy here.  I should be happy.. things are great.. tons of people care for me.  But somehow I still struggle.. and that upsets me, and I give myself heck for it.. 

  I guess the prayer for this blog is that I can go back to where my "self- rebuilding" was, and that I can love me, and accept my situation.. and not beat myself up all the time.