Saturday, September 27, 2008

Weekend

So my saturday was ok.  I was really happy to get to talk to people on Skype, and the weather was nice so i went for a walk and took pictures.  Then i just spent the rest of the day relaxing and watching a movie.  Ate some soup and another scary sandwich...
  Now its Sunday morning, and I'm a wreck.  My nose was runny when I woke up, this is relevant because the teacher beside me is sick.  I dont want to get sick.   I'm also super homesick feeling right now.  
  I miss normal.  I miss things making sense.  I miss being able to go outside and not feel lost.  I miss my mom yelling upstairs on Sunday mornings for me to get up.  I miss my dog hogging the bed.  I just miss home so much.. and i dont know what to do with myself.  I don't know if I can do this.  No, I can do this... It just hurts a lot now.  I really want April to come quickly.  
  Its been a week since i've left home.. wow.... but still I don't think I was as ready for this as I had thought.
  I need support right now... and a BIG hug.  I miss that.  I can interact with people, but it will be a long time until I will be able to hug someone... a very long time at this point.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I miss YOU!! The first bit will be the hardest because everything is so different. It's scary and nothing seems right. Remember that I'm thinking about you and that Christ is still there with you and will walk beside you and is giving you hugs when he senses you need them :) I am sending you my virtual hug... <----0.0----> That's me hugging you!:) I love you so much and I have faith you can get through this *love and prayers* ~ Jean